SHUT THE FRONT FRIGGIN' DOOR!

Ok, this post was going to start out a little differently than what it is going to be now. I won't even bother delaying what would come at the end of the post.

I GOT THE FRIGGIN' JOB!

I got the call at 2:32, four and a half hours after I left the callback, and I booked the show. So I will be an Equity card-carrying member quite soon.

I am in disbelief and shock and the whole thing is just surreal to me.

I am also completely and utterly grateful and thankful to the universe and to people who have been supporting me. I know this is one tiny step, but it is in the right direction and means I don't have to wake up early in the morning to go stand in line for the chance of not being seen.

In a weird way, and this is going to sound wrong, I feel like it validates me as an actor. It shouldn't, but it does. And damn it, I am proud of it!

Ok, so the callback itself. I woke this morning unbelievably nervous. A nervousness I have not felt in a VERY long time. I could not get a handle on my legs or my breathing. And sitting outside the room waiting was murder on me. I tend not to get too excited about wanting something because it puts me in a better psychological place for whatever may happen. But I wanted this.

So I go into the room and the nerves just went away like magic. I was off-book because there was no way I was going to hold material in my hand after two days of having it. And not at a callback. I just don't think that is the way to go. Song went really well. The sides went even better. And I left feeling like it was the best audition ever and even if I did not book the job I would not be devastated because I knew I did the best I could have done.

Thankfully, no devastation needed and I got the call. I am in such disbelief but sooooooo ready for the next phase.